2014 is not my year

hello, you. yeah you're the one who is reading this now. well, 2014 is not a good year for me. i already hate this new month, May. many bad things already happened which i probably can't tell you unless you're very close to me. i just can't handle all this problems anymore. it's killing me. i wish i could have my old life back when i was happy most of the time. i miss the old memories. i miss being a kid without being stress and not enough sleep. i used to brag about wanting to become 17/18 years old because i thought it was cool. lol. but now i realised that it was a mistake. i should appreciate my childhood life because my life as teenager right now has been stressing me out, every single day. there are ups and downs. happiness and sadness come and go. i can't even control my emotions properly. there will always bad thoughts in my mind which can never go away. i hate this feeling, it sucks so much. but i always hope for a better day, better month, better year, better life, better me. what else can i do right? hope is one of the important things to survive. without hope, i bet i'm not typing this because i probably.... you know. oh yeah, one more thing. always pray and be thankful. on behalf of muslims, i know i'm not good enough or whatsoever, but please don't forget your prayers. remember Allah, your only God and who creates you and know everything about you. well, that's all i guess. it's already 2.30 am and i have school later. i should go to sleep now. so, good night. have a good life ahead. remember, be humble. hm insyaAllah we'll meet again, if i have time or anything that i want to share. may Allah bless you. goodbye. :)

- Iskandar Z.